KERANA PADA AKHIRNYA AKU HARUS PERGI

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.


Once again in my life time, I am being tested by a guy whom I seek for the loyalty but I failed. There is nothing much I could say this time. But, it surely kills me. I SERIOUSLY don't know what should I feel and think. I just want to run and run and run.... from this fake!

Entah lah....
I wonder why Allah always send me a flirt guy for everytime I fall in love.
 And I wonder why it was not me in the first place in his heart...
Well, I should realize then that I am always being the choices not the priority one. :)


Haih!
Lepas satu, satu jadi kan Hannan...? Bila entah nak ada orang yang sebetulnya jadi cinta paling sejati ni... Mereput dulu agaknya... hahaha (^_^)

It was soooo sad and dissapointed actually. While you have given your believeness to someone but he broke it. Tapi tak pe lah...mungkin bukan jodoh lagi.Mungkin selama ni Allah hantar orang tu untuk aku jaga jodoh orang lain dulu before aku dapat jodoh sendiri.





I wish I can end up our 2 years relationship in peace and harmony. Aku pun malas dah nak fikir. Tak tau kenapa kali ni hati jadi makin keras. Mungkin Hannan yang hatinya lembut selama ni, yang senang diberi alasan itu ini dan terimaaa je alasan tu, dah pergi jauh.

Mungkin jugak Hannan yang sekarang sama penatnya dgn orang tu yang turut fed up dengan kita. ;)
In shaa Allah, he deserves someone better than me. Much better,perhaps! :D


Kalau  dia doakan yang buruk-buruk buat aku pun, siapa lagi aku untuk halang kan? Untuk rayu? Because I'm not the first at the really first pun dari dulu sampai sekarang pun...Asyik kena tipu je manjang ada laa....hahahahahahaha
*Bravo Hannan!*  :p

Since tak dapat tidur ni, tetibe teingat lagu "Sudah Ku Tahu"... Duk ulang je dengar sambil pelan-pelan tunggu mata lelap..sedas jugak kena dengan lagu ni.
(sambil meleleh air mata)

Buat yang terakhir, moganya ada sinar menanti di sana. Moganya seorang Nur Hannan binti Che Soh terus kuat dan tabah dalam menjalani hidup. Moganya diri dapat insan yang benar-benar ikhlas menyayangi hingga ke akhirnya. <3

(p/s : Wish me luck for my first job interview this Tuesday! xoxo! )


With super duper muchie love,
Yourself!

HANNAN IN HER DOWN WORLD

Assalamualaikum.

Dear my love blog,
I know that there's nowhere that I can write and tell all my feelings right now. Well, I know that I still have my parents to be shared with but.....

I don't think that my Ummi will listen to what I wanted to tell to very much!

Baba? Well, he's the best listener for me ever but.... I dont know why I just cant tell him what is my feeling right now. What is burden me somehow. Because...I dont want him to get upset with me anymore. He is, indeed, too much gave his all full support for me.

I felt like I already made him so upset because of me. Because of this subject!

Ya Allah.
I seriously dont know what's going on with me.
I dont have any courage to continue this battle. I dont have any spirit to face it!

I miss my friends. I need my friends. I miss all the old days we're together, fighting with all those engineering subjects and helping each other to earn the lab results.

Happy with the excellent result after 2 months of trials!

Emon and Ika while we're surviving to get the results

I was so dumb, DO I?
For being a repeat student for this subject. Alas, it is already my FINAL SEMESTER! While everyone is now happy counting days for our graduation soon with the jobs and me? Still facing that tough subject alone?

Oh My! :(

I seriously dont have courage. I seriously fed up.
For after too much effort you had put for that semester just for that subject..and...you end up fail?

And...currently right now...I have to face this one alone. without anyone knows. Without my friends.
Only my family who is far away...and him.
He might come tomorrow from Malacca just to help me. And for that, I really really hope that we can settle down my Lab 1 by tomorrow or the day after tomorrow in order to hand in the report to my lecturer before this Raya.

Ya Allah
I dont have courage for this test. I just hope that everything gonna be alright soon.
Give me strength!

TERPAKSA JUA KU UNDUR DIRI

Bismillahhirrahmanirrahim.

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

Alhamdulillah, yesterday was a great and good day for me myself with the happy and really sad moments. I thanked those people that had been sending to me from Allah.

Setiap yang datang dalam hidup kita,pasti ada sebabnya dan pengajarannya,can't say much.

Dan mungkin juga Allah hantar seseorang untuk memberitahu kita sesuatu yang kita buta untuk melihat kerana segunung kepercayaan pada orang sekeliling kita? Perhaps!

Frankly speaking,it's actually hurt me..tapi, apakan daya aku.And to think twice,I should leave from this.Tak semua orang yang kau sayang kau akan dapat jiwa,hati dan rohnya.Chill beb!Soal hati dan perasaan mana boleh paksa! Luls.

After all,I really appreciate them for coming into my life. Thanks for the very kind and warm treatment for everytime we met,Pak Cik,Mak Cik,Mummy,Daddy and Opah.Huge Appologise from me.

Well, Hannan darlings! Life must be go on and on and on...

Moganya,setelah hampir 2 tahun dalam penipuan akan mengajarkan kau lebih kuat untuk meneruskan hidup yang tersisa dengan ragam manusia yang masih banyak.

You gotta be a strong woman,Nur Hannan Che Soh!!! I love you! ;)

14 February 2016.

A day of a new life started,May Allah ease the way. In shaa Allah. :)