Assalamulaikum............
I think,it had been a long long time for me didn't update any new entry of me right??
well,since i got that sunshine again,maybe??
hehe (^_^)
After all....
sebanarnya,malam nie tak nak online.....
tapi,teronline laa pulak!!!
haiyyaaa..........!!!!!!!
bukan ape....it was just...i don't know where should i tell this down feeling and to whom i should do that.... and yet,i think,my blog is the best one.....
urm,.....
ok...sebenarnya,malam nie dah cakap kat diri sendiri,tak nak online...nak tidor awal...
masuk je bilik tadi....
hmmm....
tengok handphone....OPSS!!!
ada mesej...dari siapakah??
from one of my friend....ex-schoolmate...
and...
his message really drive me down....and SHOCKED too!!! -,-
after all,i was landing on my bed....thinking and thinking,and thinking...
what am i going to do???
what am i should do???
and.........
what am i have to manage the things wisely and in the right way...
as a leader to him....
seriously....tak keruan kot!!tak tau nak fikir ape...kalau dia rasa down dengan apa yang dia lakukan selama nie,aku pun rasa down jugak...susah kot nak yakinkan orang...bukan kau sorang laa....!!!
(haisy,x pasal2 keluar jugak kemarahan yang tak tersengaja aku nie kan????but to you,i'm really sorry..tapi,itulah yang aku rasa jugak....kalau kau pun rasakan yang tu yang menyebabkan kau fed up dengan bende tu)
and,to reduce my upset feeling,i'm forcing myself to read the Contengan Jalanan II-K square by Hlovate... yang sememangnya novel itulah yang menjadi penemanku sekarang...but still,i can't focus my mind to the every sentence of words yang ada dalam contengan jalanan tue.....
I messaged my leader....informing her about what had happened....and she asked me to gain the courage and be patient......and,I did it...
now,it's all left to her.....and kak yati...(I hope that both of them will make the situation getting better and clear to me....)
after all,time try nak focuskan minda nie pada contengan jalanan yang tak dapat terfokuskan,tangan kananku pulak yang mintak diberi perhatian....sakitnya kembali lagi.....adoi....
ok,fine...memang before this pun,masa duk guna mesin-mesin,buat project,angkat barang berat-berat masa technical training tue,memang dah ada sakit jugak...berdenyut.....tapi,malas nak layan...walaupun kadang-kadang mengganggu tidur jugak....urm....tapi,this time,tak de laa buat kerja berat sangat...tapi malam nie,siyes rasa sakit lagi compare to before...and, dah 3 hari laa rasa sakit balik tangan nie...urm....
tetibe pulak teringat time injured tangan dulu....fuh...azab,azab....just imagine that u dont have a right hand which is the one yang you bergantung harap utk menulis,makan,and buat kerja-kerja berat yang anda lebih percayakan tangan kanan lagi berbanding tangan kiri...sangat menyeksakan!! and i have that experience too...for a few months....the 3 months early of that is the critical time to me....REALLY,IT WAS!!!
And now,tangan tu sakit balik secara tiba-tiba....ketika aku sedang hati tak keruan....
Ya Allah...permudahkanlah..............berikanlah aku petunjuk...janganlah Engkau pesongkan hatiku seperti mana Engkau pesongkan hati hamba-hambaMu sebelum ini...tunjukkanku jalan yang benar,jalan yang Engkau redhoi....amin,ya Rab....
#ketika satu pintu kebahagiaan tertutup,pintu yang lain dibukakan...tetapi seringkali kita terpaku terlalu lama pada pintu yang tertutup sehingga tidak melihat pintu lain yang dibukakan bagi kita#
*saat diriku kecundang,Wednesday,11.45,110712*
