I AM NOBODY

Today,
I just came out my mind to write everything in this blog. Because I tried to find a friend to lean on. But I failed!

I am so tired of crying all alone in this room. I don't know why.

Pagi tadi, I just finished with my first paper final exam which is Clinical And Industrial Environment at 10.30 a.m. I tell to myself that I have to start doing my thesis of my Final Year Project since I have to submit it by 8th February soon.

However, I failed to do so. How many times I tried. I tried to ignore my feeling. I tried to ignore what I am currently feel. End up, I failed! I failed!

It is being more than two weeks since I got myself into that  terrible accident. And when it comes to my transport to the campus or to everywhere, i feel so down. It is so sad when that accident comes into my mind as I will always ask myself,"why should the accident happen to me?"

Yes, I know that I cannot ask such that question. It gonna be myself something lack of iman. But.... I just a human. I can't be everytime high motivated person. At some point when there is nobody there that willingly to help you, you will eventually feel down.

Ya Allah,
I know that I have so much wrongs to you. I shouldn't say that kind of thing. And Baba always scolded me of having that kind of "why", "kalaulah", "sepatutnya"..... But, how can erh? nobdy will understand you. What the life put you.

I tried to tell to my Ummi and Baba. What I felt and what I am currently face. I did tell to Ummi in "kiasan". And none of the texts got relied. So sad me!

Tonight, I called him. I just want him to comfort me. I just want him to listen to me. To my cries. But, I kow that I am not that so important. Super sad me! ha!ha!

I MISS MY MYVI A LOT! AND I DO NEED IT NOW!

The only one picture of my Myvi

I need you, my dear DBB 6616! <3

(p/s : So glad that I survived from the accident. Alhamdulillah. )

VOLUNTEERISM : PLAY & PRAY

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

Alhamdulillah, I am really honor to share my activities on PLAY & PRAY event for this post.

Get to know this event from a junior of mine, Najihah Ishak. At first, I am a little bit lazy to go actually because...well, yeah...rasa mahu bermalas-malasan di rumah dengan weekend yang panjang dari Jumaat hingga Isnin. hiks!

But, to think twice, I think that it is better for me to spend my weekend time for something that would benefit me..for at least, I won't be alone and lonely..and for sure, it can help me to forget that kind of crazy stuff bla bla bla.

So, I was given a task in Explorace Preparation. At first, I was thinking that it gonna be easy..ye lah, setakat nak kena create few of the games for the six checkpoints and prepare the goods for explorace kan? Senang je tu. kiki
Tapi biasalah, it won't be as that easy when it comes to a kind of handling the games with the very smart and hyperactive kids whom basically using English as their first languange in home. Siap ada yang dengar pelat masa they are all speaking Malay..huhu

I was thinking that this explorace session would be great if I have the suitable time session like two hours or maybe at least 1 hour..The rainy evening is actually killed the kids time to finish this explorace...huhu...

Not to forget to share,in this PLAY & PRAY, I also got a chance to try the archery as well..tapi, right after all the kids play lah kan...? coz we volunteers do not pay the camp fee like the kids..hehe..It was a really really best experience in my life to play/do one of our Prophet Muhammad S.A.W sunnah.

After all, it was a very great experience to get invloved in this programme as I can be able to learn many things from the rest of the volunteers and the very fluently English Malay kids too.

Till we meet again, everyone! Sorry for cannot join the next Play & Pray on this upcoming 31 October!

with Love,
NHCS.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, 18 September!

Hey, YOU!

I won't text you just to wish a "Happy Birthday" just like what you did to me few days ago. 

*eyes moving down and crying*

Well, seriously, Selamat Hari Lahir, Happy Bornday, semoga panjang umur,  dimurahkan rezeki, dipermudahkan segala urusan, moga menjadi anak sulung yang soleh dan semoga diberikan kesihatan yang baik.

I believe that you will always be in Allah's care. Take care!

Not to forget,

Semoga bahagia.

(p/s:  today, what i can just do is....cry.. if you know that how i miss you so badly! but,you didn't)

CRYING OFF MY FACE,AGAIN!

blalalallala