I just came out my mind to write everything in this blog. Because I tried to find a friend to lean on. But I failed!
I am so tired of crying all alone in this room. I don't know why.
Pagi tadi, I just finished with my first paper final exam which is Clinical And Industrial Environment at 10.30 a.m. I tell to myself that I have to start doing my thesis of my Final Year Project since I have to submit it by 8th February soon.
However, I failed to do so. How many times I tried. I tried to ignore my feeling. I tried to ignore what I am currently feel. End up, I failed! I failed!
It is being more than two weeks since I got myself into that terrible accident. And when it comes to my transport to the campus or to everywhere, i feel so down. It is so sad when that accident comes into my mind as I will always ask myself,"why should the accident happen to me?"
Yes, I know that I cannot ask such that question. It gonna be myself something lack of iman. But.... I just a human. I can't be everytime high motivated person. At some point when there is nobody there that willingly to help you, you will eventually feel down.
Ya Allah,
I know that I have so much wrongs to you. I shouldn't say that kind of thing. And Baba always scolded me of having that kind of "why", "kalaulah", "sepatutnya"..... But, how can erh? nobdy will understand you. What the life put you.
I tried to tell to my Ummi and Baba. What I felt and what I am currently face. I did tell to Ummi in "kiasan". And none of the texts got relied. So sad me!
Tonight, I called him. I just want him to comfort me. I just want him to listen to me. To my cries. But, I kow that I am not that so important. Super sad me! ha!ha!
I MISS MY MYVI A LOT! AND I DO NEED IT NOW!
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| The only one picture of my Myvi |
I need you, my dear DBB 6616! <3
(p/s : So glad that I survived from the accident. Alhamdulillah. )
