eh,Blog nie berhantu laaa!!

Hee,heee,hee.................

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!

Adosh!
bukan berhantu betul laaaa.....main main je! ~weeee~

ops!
Assalamualaikum w.b.t....

hmmmm.............
Dah lama tak de entry baru kat blog nie...
bukan ape,sejak masuk degree nie,busy giler kot hidup!!! kalah PM!
(errr.....Pembantu Makmal pun panggil PM jugak kan???ekekeke)
Tue pasal laaa aku tulis tajuk entry hari nie yang aku punyer blog berhantu!! sebab dah lama tak berpenghuni.....huuuuu~

Biasalah kan,kalau rumah or even tempat yang lama dah ditinggalkan pun,akan dihuni oleh makhluk lain jugak kan?tapi,insya-Allah,bolg tak laaa.......blog hanya sekadar blog.Diari yang tak terbuka dan tak tertulis.. (wah,bermadah pujangga pulak aku kat sini...hehe)

ok,for this time being,memang nak cakapnye,serius busy.....ingatkan,dunia u nie,tak busy...rilex je...tapi, salah tanggapan rupenye!!kenapa laaa cikgu-cikgu kat sekolah dulu asyik cakap yang u life nie rilex???? pelik aku!! rasanya lebih teruk kut daripada time sekolah dulu.....~dush!~

nampak tak betapa busy dan stress nye muka kat atas tue???adoi......tue baru baca buku,belum lagi buat lab report,assignment and other group work.....hmmmm....redha je laaa.....:(

tapi,pape pun,hidup sebagai student nie,perlulah hepi kan????kalau tak,nanti giler kang,sape nak tanggung?? aku jugak!! haha.....

so,sebab tue laaa,even stress mana pun study,baca buku,buat research sana sini,group discussion segala bagai,hadap buku kena senyum.....

                                               macam nie!!!   :D

hoho!!buku latihan Engineering Maths jugak laaa jadi model kan???? adoi.......

ok laaa,got to go.....entah bile pulak laaa dapat post entry lagi.....

pape pun,see ya!!

with <3,
ana cs.

Somebody That I USED to know!

Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
I told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kinda sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad that it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make it like it never happened and that we were nothing
I don't even need your love, but you treat me like a stranger
And that feels so rough

No, you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records
And then change your number
Guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/g/gotye-lyrics/somebody-that-i-used-to-know-lyrics.html ]
But had me believin it was always something that I'd done

But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know-oh-oh

But you didn't have cut me off
Make it like it never happened and that we were nothing (oh)
I don't even need your love, but you treat me like a stranger
and that feels so rough

(oh)

No, you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect you records
And then change your number (oh)
Guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Somebody that I used to know
Somebody (now your just somebody that I used to know)
That I used to know
Somebody that I used to know
Somebody (somebody) (now your just somebody that I used to know)
That I used to know

I used to know
That I used to know
I used to know
Somebody

~Rasanya,dah genap setahun lebih ia berlalu pergi...namun,the miserable memories are still here & there for me... maaf,kerana sukar untuk melupakan namun itulah hakikat yang sebenarnya..bukan mengharap pada yang telah pergi tetapi.....sekadar mengingati...(perasaan itu halus!)~

ATMA YANG KECIL ......

Assalamualaikum w.b.t................

Nothing to say.....

Nothing to share.....

Nothing to do.....

Nothing to cry on....

BUT!!!!

I do have something to voice,

Write,

Typing,

And..................................

Record!!!

Yes,I surely don’t have any interesting one to keep as a memory....so,i’m thinking,why not I’m taking the bad one to  realise what the world really is???

And,here i do...

Well,to live the life,you yourselves shouldn’t expect that every single of human,animals, leaders, administration,people surrounding  you,your friends or even your  BEST FRIENDS will always be with you,agree with your ideas, and always follow your ways...

Because...

We all are human being.....

We have our heart....

We have our ego...

We,too,have our  thinking to be obeyed.....

And just tell me,who is the person that will always agree and follow what others’ views and ideas???

WHO?????

There’s nobody....!!!

“kita tidak mungkin dapat memuaskan hati semua pihak tapi kita mungkin mampu ke arah itu.....laksanakanlah sesuatu itu dengan sebaiknya...kerana setidak-tidaknya,majoriti  itu ada dibelakangmu....”

 -NHCS-

Tentang kisahku.....yang telah berlaku darsawarsa ini....tidak perlulah dipusingkan dan dipandang kembali kerana disini aku hanya menyatakan apa yang tersirat sahaja disebalik yang tersurat....

Intensiku bukanlah untuk mengaibkan sesiapa bahkan diriku sendiri...Cuma.....aku hanya inginkan keadilan yang telah dijanjikan dan dimeterai bersama.

Intensiku bukanlah untuk memperlekehkan apa yang telah diberi.....hanya sekadar inginkan secebis kefahaman yang telah terisi sebelum ini....

Untuk kamu,

Sekiranya kamu berasa di atas...

Tidak semestinya kamu akan sentiasa berkuasa dan selesa di tampuk kepimpinanmu....

Tidak semestinya kamu bisa membuatkan kami yang di bawah ini tidak dibela....

Dan

Tidak juga semestinya kamu sentiasa berada selamanya di sana....

Ingatlah.....

“hidup ini umpama roda....sekali kamu berada di atas,seringkali juga kamu akan berada di bawah..dan,berada di bawah itu adalah sangat perit...”

 -Tuah Sujana a.k.a  abang Azri -

Dan kepada diri-diri itu juga,

Sekiranya kamu mengerti akan istilah itu.....

Tidak semestinya diri-dirimu mengikuti  langkah itu...

dan membiarkan diri ini meneruskan langkah itu dengan penuh lesu,bertatih....

menelusuri arked yang kusam lagi usang itu..

kerana diri ini hanya inginkan sedikit pengertian tentang istilah itu.

Sekadar itu,cuma itu!!

Ketahuilah......

“kadang kala,seseorang yang periang dan banyak bercakap itu tidak semestinya sering gembira seiiring dengan perwatakannya seperti yang kamu ketahui....kerana mereka acap kali akan menyembunyikan kesedihan mereka di sebalik keriangan itu........dan,andainya kamu berpengalaman,itu sangatlah menyakitkan.....bukankah??”

 -NHCS-

Ok,back to the main point.......it was nothing.....but....it was everything!!! Everything that  gonna be in my mind and memory...surely,I will stick them,forever...

Kerana....

Ianya memori itu....

Dan

Memori ini....

Untuk diingati....

Sepanjang hayat....

Tentang kehidupan itu

Serta

Kehidupan ini

Yang tercoret di bumi

Dan tanah itu....

Yang tertinggal hanyalah tapak-tapak mereka

Juga

Aku....

Yeap.di bumi yang gersang dan tandus.....

Mengajar aku erti hidup.....erti  kekitaan...erti diri sendiri,yang tak perlu ikut jejak manusia itu...

Dan selama seminggu itu sememangnya cukup untuk mengajarku......

“jangan terlampau meletakkan seseorang itu yang tertinggi dalam kehidupan...kerana yakinlah.....Allah lebih besar....Rasulullah lebih tinggi.....ibu,ibu,ibu & bapa lebih menyanyangi...... keluarga itu lebih memahami........” (di saat diri ini bersandar  kepada Allah,Rasul & mereka)

-NHCS-

Serasakan,cukuplah sekadar ini sahaja cebisan hati & contengan perasaan sepanjang hari kegelapan itu menghantuiku.....tiada apa lagi yang perlu dikatakan.....kerana itu sahajalah yang mampu untukku kenangkan......

K.E.H.I.D.U.P.A.N

                                I.T.U

   

                                         I.N.D.A.H

                                                           T.E.R.L.U.K.I.S

                                                                                     A.N.D.A.I      

                                                                                                        K.A.M.U

                                                                                                                         P.U.N.Y.A

                                                                                                                                                                   

                                                                                                                                            D.I.A

                                                                                                                                                                         

FULLSTOP!!!!!!!!!!

• Opss!!last word...:
  
  

(Terima kasih untuk mereka,kamu,awak dan dia untuk contengan jalanan ini)

#31 July 2012#

*entry yang dah berkarat,baru dapat kemudahan internet*

ARGHHHH..........PLEASE????

Assalamualaikum..............  (^_^)

Peace from my heart to the world....and peace to myself,too...:P

Well,hari nie,I don’t know what should I say....

Apa erk???

Hmmmmm...............

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH..................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GERAM!!!!!GERAM!!!!!!!!!!!GERAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And

GERAM!!!!!!!!!!!

Haha!!tue je yang aku tau hari nie....

Dari petang after asar tadi,sampailah malam nie...i meant,tadi...

After asar tadi,time duk lepak-lepak kat luar,kena tegur....depan semua kot...

~DuSh~

Ok,aku tak kisah nak tegur aku Cuma.....

Boleh tak kalau one by one???

Dah lah main “bang” je....x de dengar bunyi petikan pistol pun,terus tengok peluru datang...huhu

Pulak tue,time tengok someone,boleh pulak dia tersenyum sumbing???

Aiiiiii......sabor je laa,belalang.... :(

<betul laa kata orang,kalau kite nak tegur,kena berhikmah sikit....tengok tengok keadaan dan tempat...kena tegur secara berlembut....kena tegur personally,agar orang tue tak malu....dan tak menyakitkan hati orang tu...dan yang paling berkesan teguran itu adalah apabila orang yang menegur itu,akhlaknya pada sesuatu benda yang ditegur itu bagus,terpuji.....maknanya,perbaiki dahulu diri,baru boleh tegur orang....>

By the way,thanks sebab tegur aku jugak tadi...at least,aku boleh memperbaiki diri ke arah yang lebih baik.... :)  kan,kan??huhu................tapi,memang malu & geram...ho!ho!  ~evil laugh hurh??~

Pas tue,malam nie pulak,after balik dari perform mahgrib,recite yaasin & again perform solah,isyak,terus buat aku bad mood pulak...erh,before that,dinner dulu laa kan??hehe.....

Ok,after dinner tadi,duk gelak-gelak,happy-happy laa dulu kan dengan family.....

Pas tu,my dad asked me to “potong” my cloth for baju kurung raya nanti...(see how advance my family are...dah siap beli kain untuk raya nanti kot....puasa pun tak start lagi...tapi sayang..raya kali nie,semua kain baju kurung,bukan pilihan aku....pilihan umi & kak fatin...beli time aku x de...)

Nak dijadikan ceritanya.....

Jeng...jeng...jeng!!!

Naaaahhhhh................!!!!!!

Time duk potong-potong tu,umi aku yang tersayang nie macam biasalaa....selalu je was-was dengan potongan bajuku...katanya,kenapa nampak kecik laa....kenapa nampak tak sama laa....kenapa gunting tak betul tu???

Haiyaaa.....dah betul laa umi.....ce umi ukur sendiri....

“hah,betul-betul...nampak macam tak betul tadi....”

“hurm.............ba...tengok lah umi tue,selalu tak caya dengan adik...” (ops!!ok...let me introduce you all,i’m the youngest one...heeee)

“alaa...umi saja je tu.dik....takut adik buat salah....nanti nak jahit,tak boleh kalau salah....dah la kain tue mahal....”(sambil senyum... (^_^) )

“hmmmmm............ok!”    ~_~  (muka tak puas hati and keep doing my work)

*errr...sorry...yang nie tak de laa geram sangat...Cuma,first step untuk geram laa....sebab...selalu je, benda yang aku nak buat,umi macam tak akan let me do it by myself....memasak pun sama...kecuali bab-bab goreng menggoreng je umi akan tinggalkan aku buat sendiri...senang kot..huhu...kalau nak masak lauk-pauk untuk lunch tue,umi ada sekali laa....

And,that’s why,I love to live in hostel....start form 4,I’m a hostel girl...since that,semua benda aku akan buat ikut suka aku....bebas kot!! Hehe...tapi,agama still tak tinggal tau....since form  4 laa jugak aku belajar macam mana nak guna washing machine..tu pun roommate yang ajar..hehe..(what a pity it was right??tapi kerja-kerja rumah yang lain tue still aku belajar buat time kecik lagi tau..jangan salah sangka...walaupun anak bongsu,still kena buat semua bende tu ok??ho!ho!)

Erh,panjang pulak...terpesong...aisy...

Ok,tetibe start geram tue,time umi kata,sape suruh potong guna kaedah tekap kain yang dah dipotong???susah laa.....at first,aku senyap....tapi,bila umi keep asking me that,(aku tau,umi penat...huhu..kesian umi nak kena menyelia aku lagi... :) so,aku cakap laa,bukan aku yang nak buat tadi....pas tue,baba yang duk nun jauh di hujung sana ruang dining hall(dining hall kami panjang......)baba tetibe menjawab...kan kak fatin yang suruh tadi...bukan adik..)

Heee~~

See.umi??not me ok??

Kak fatin yang tengah selesema pun jawab,sape suruh ikut???kak ting(actually,kak fatin) buat senang je!!

Alahai....kakakku.............

Kamu dah pro bab-bab menjahit nie.....adikmu ini???baru je merangkak....tak dapat bertatih lagi,kak oit...hehe!!

Sejak tue,aku tahan sangat sedih,tup!!

Alamak...time nie jugak laa dia nak menitisnye...hailaa..dah laa umi ada kat depan nie....adoi....terus aku  membelakangkan umi...waaaaa...............(sedih,sedih kalau nak ingat balik...kesian umi)

After that,siap potong kain pukul 11.20 malam tadi....dari pukul 10 malam start...adoi...orang utara kata,jenuih heh nak menunggu.....:P  hahahahaha

So,here there are,baru 2 je yang siap....(haisy,nak menjahitnya satu hal laa pulak...)

Seriously,kesian umi..............!!!!(sob,sob,sob)

*moral value:appreciate your mom...and mom,and mom....and dad...

  because,both of them are really care about you.....

  when you fall,they are the one whom will help you to wake up again, 

  and again and again...and..they will never exhausted just because of your attitude and action...

  Love you, umi & baba.... <3 *

urm...sedikit perkongsian daripadaku tentang ayah & ibu...video nie,dari program halaqah sentuhan qalbu by tv9.....the one yang give the talk is one of the ESQ Leadership Trainer,indonesia....saja share,kebetulan hati ni memang tengah demam ESQ Training yang akan diadakan esok & ahad yang aku tak dapat join....:(  so,pengubatnya,malam nie tidur lewat,layan semua video ESQ kat youtube..hehe... so,have fun...!!!

JUST GONNA TO VOICE IT OUT!!!!!!!

Assalamulaikum............

I think,it had been a long long time for me didn't update any new entry of me right??
well,since i got that sunshine again,maybe??
hehe (^_^)




After all....
sebanarnya,malam nie tak nak online.....


tapi,teronline laa pulak!!!


haiyyaaa..........!!!!!!!






bukan ape....it was just...i don't know where should i tell this down feeling and to whom i should do that.... and yet,i think,my blog is the best one.....




urm,.....


ok...sebenarnya,malam nie dah cakap kat diri sendiri,tak nak online...nak tidor awal...
masuk je bilik tadi....
hmmm....
tengok handphone....OPSS!!!


ada mesej...dari siapakah??


from one of my friend....ex-schoolmate...


and...
his message really drive me down....and SHOCKED too!!!  -,-

after all,i was landing on my bed....thinking and thinking,and thinking...
what am i going to do???
what am i should do???
and.........
what am i have to manage the things wisely and in the right way...
as a leader to him....
seriously....tak keruan kot!!tak tau nak fikir ape...kalau dia rasa down dengan apa yang dia lakukan selama nie,aku pun rasa down jugak...susah kot nak yakinkan orang...bukan kau sorang laa....!!!
(haisy,x pasal2 keluar jugak kemarahan yang tak tersengaja aku nie kan????but to you,i'm really sorry..tapi,itulah yang aku rasa jugak....kalau kau pun rasakan yang tu yang menyebabkan kau fed up dengan bende tu) 


and,to reduce my upset feeling,i'm forcing myself to read the Contengan Jalanan II-K square by Hlovate... yang sememangnya novel itulah yang menjadi penemanku sekarang...but still,i can't focus my mind to the every sentence of words yang ada dalam contengan jalanan tue.....


I messaged my leader....informing her about what had happened....and she asked me to gain the courage and be patient......and,I did it...


now,it's all left to her.....and kak yati...(I hope that both of them will make the situation getting better and clear to me....)


after all,time try nak focuskan minda nie pada contengan jalanan yang tak dapat terfokuskan,tangan kananku pulak yang mintak diberi perhatian....sakitnya kembali lagi.....adoi....




ok,fine...memang before this pun,masa duk guna mesin-mesin,buat project,angkat barang berat-berat masa technical training tue,memang dah ada sakit jugak...berdenyut.....tapi,malas nak layan...walaupun kadang-kadang mengganggu tidur jugak....urm....tapi,this time,tak de laa buat kerja berat sangat...tapi malam nie,siyes rasa sakit lagi compare to before...and, dah 3 hari laa rasa sakit balik tangan nie...urm....


tetibe pulak teringat time injured tangan dulu....fuh...azab,azab....just imagine that u dont have a right hand which is the one yang you bergantung harap utk menulis,makan,and buat kerja-kerja berat yang anda lebih percayakan tangan kanan lagi berbanding tangan kiri...sangat menyeksakan!! and i have that experience too...for a few months....the 3 months early of that is the critical time to me....REALLY,IT WAS!!!


And now,tangan tu sakit balik secara tiba-tiba....ketika aku sedang hati tak keruan....

Ya Allah...permudahkanlah..............berikanlah aku petunjuk...janganlah Engkau pesongkan hatiku seperti mana Engkau pesongkan hati hamba-hambaMu sebelum ini...tunjukkanku jalan yang benar,jalan yang Engkau redhoi....amin,ya Rab....


#ketika satu pintu kebahagiaan tertutup,pintu yang lain dibukakan...tetapi seringkali kita terpaku terlalu lama pada pintu yang tertutup sehingga tidak melihat pintu lain yang dibukakan bagi kita#

*saat diriku kecundang,Wednesday,11.45,110712*

#............BEING APPRECIATED.............#

Bismillah,....
Assalamualaikum w.b.t.....

Being appreciated..... <3

Life...

It is just like nothing interesting & meaningful when you've nothing to be proud of.....

It is just a lifeless that you yourselves go through......

But....

It surely become more interesting & meaningful than everything in this world when you've something to be proud of.....

Well,what else should I say???

Just imagine,

The day you lose the one that you hope to....

The day that you're going to lose the one that you hope to...

AND

The day that you're going to let the one that you hope to go far away.....
FROM YOU.............

Yet,it's hurts right???

And

Somehow,it doesn't mean anything....(just for those who heartless)  ^_*

Yes,for me..and maybe you too.....

All of us have our own experience,losing and missing someone that you love....

Granparents,parents,siblings,family,friends or even pets!!

Ops...!!but,for this time being,my parents & siblings (my dad :Che Soh b Che Mat,52,my mum : Nurhurriah bt Nawawi,49,my eldest brother: Abdul Haqqim b Che Soh,26,my second sister : Che Nur Haqqah bt Che Soh,25 and my third sister :Nur Fatin bt Che Soh,21 are still with me...Alhamdulillah...Ya,Allah,thanks for everythings that you've lend me to be by my side...I really appreciate them...:)

After all,it is about feeling....:)

what do you feel when the one that you love(eveyone including your friends) comes back to you...and at the same time,you have had missed them????

In the simple words,you get back what you lose before???

I,confidently say that it's such a relief right???

So do I..... (^_^)

So,when it comes to you,please,appreciate it.....I'm begging you...

Because....

To let someone go without your wish is so hurts....

To let someone go without your wish is really painful......

Because.......I've that experience!!!!

Really hurts,

Seriously!!!!

~Alhamdulillah,again,I can see & hold the sunshine that fade away from me before...and,that sunshine really treats me with a nicely treatment....and yet, I'M BEING APPRECIATED...........Alhamdulillah~

!!!..................FaR AwAy...............!!!

*Once upon a time*

Hey!!!

See,the sunshine was smiling at you....

where it is???

There "laaahhhh"................haiya!!

owh,yeah,I got you....~ngeee~

At that time,that sun will always by my side...even it was rainy day with the scary light,thunder, and the tsunami itself.....(I think you can imagine what the hard life it is)

*The presence day*

Hey!!

what are you doing here???

Errrr....?????hurm.................

I'm waiting for that sunshine...the sun that you;ve showed me up that day....

Hurh???why are you waiting for it???

isy....errrr....hurm..........................(speechless)!!!

because I really miss that sunshine.....what else,hurh???

Ooooo.....you miss that sunshine....:P

Heee.....of course!!! what??jelous??hehe....

eeeuuuwwww....please!!!so,where's that sunshine???

Ehem!!!don't you see everything of "that sunshine" in front of me or our surrounding???

N.O.P.E....... 

#so,i don't know too..as yours... :( please,shall you find that sunshine for me again????because he's really meant to me....in my difficulties,he's the one who always be by my side after Allah,my loving family & roomates.....and,I don't need him when the times want him to be the sunshine but I need him for every single time that the world passing by....I don't need that sunshine when the things are going hard to me but indeed, I need that sunshine whenever my joyfull time wants that sunshine....even it's hard,happy,sad, or, "kah,kah,kah" ...#

~could you find me that again???and don't you loose it again for me,please...I'm begging you....~




When Allah gives you something valueable,
please,
apreciate it first before it'll go....
far away from you....:)





If I Let You Go  (Actually,there's a song video by Westlife for this music but I can't upload it..wifi lembab.)

Day after day
Time pass away
And I just can't get you out my mind
Nobody knows
I hide it inside
I keep on searching
But I can't find
The courage to show
To letting you know
I never felt so much love before
And once again
I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

[Chorus]
But if I let you go
I will never know
What's my life would be
Holding you close to me
Will I ever see
You smiling back at me
How will I know
If I let you go

Night after night
I hear myself say
What can't this feeling just fade away
There's no one like you
Can speak to my heart
It's just a shame we worlds apart
I'm too shy to ask
I'm too proud to lose
But sooner or later
I've got to choose
And once again
I'm thinking about
taking the easy way out

@the day that I miss that presence of NH.....And I really know that I don't want to miss that sunshine....Please,Ya Allah....he's such a good friend to me...@


dedicated to only you that I miss your presence.....really!!so much!!and to be the only you,enough said,thanks for everything....NH!! 


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