KERANA PADA AKHIRNYA AKU HARUS PERGI

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.


Once again in my life time, I am being tested by a guy whom I seek for the loyalty but I failed. There is nothing much I could say this time. But, it surely kills me. I SERIOUSLY don't know what should I feel and think. I just want to run and run and run.... from this fake!

Entah lah....
I wonder why Allah always send me a flirt guy for everytime I fall in love.
 And I wonder why it was not me in the first place in his heart...
Well, I should realize then that I am always being the choices not the priority one. :)


Haih!
Lepas satu, satu jadi kan Hannan...? Bila entah nak ada orang yang sebetulnya jadi cinta paling sejati ni... Mereput dulu agaknya... hahaha (^_^)

It was soooo sad and dissapointed actually. While you have given your believeness to someone but he broke it. Tapi tak pe lah...mungkin bukan jodoh lagi.Mungkin selama ni Allah hantar orang tu untuk aku jaga jodoh orang lain dulu before aku dapat jodoh sendiri.





I wish I can end up our 2 years relationship in peace and harmony. Aku pun malas dah nak fikir. Tak tau kenapa kali ni hati jadi makin keras. Mungkin Hannan yang hatinya lembut selama ni, yang senang diberi alasan itu ini dan terimaaa je alasan tu, dah pergi jauh.

Mungkin jugak Hannan yang sekarang sama penatnya dgn orang tu yang turut fed up dengan kita. ;)
In shaa Allah, he deserves someone better than me. Much better,perhaps! :D


Kalau  dia doakan yang buruk-buruk buat aku pun, siapa lagi aku untuk halang kan? Untuk rayu? Because I'm not the first at the really first pun dari dulu sampai sekarang pun...Asyik kena tipu je manjang ada laa....hahahahahahaha
*Bravo Hannan!*  :p

Since tak dapat tidur ni, tetibe teingat lagu "Sudah Ku Tahu"... Duk ulang je dengar sambil pelan-pelan tunggu mata lelap..sedas jugak kena dengan lagu ni.
(sambil meleleh air mata)

Buat yang terakhir, moganya ada sinar menanti di sana. Moganya seorang Nur Hannan binti Che Soh terus kuat dan tabah dalam menjalani hidup. Moganya diri dapat insan yang benar-benar ikhlas menyayangi hingga ke akhirnya. <3

(p/s : Wish me luck for my first job interview this Tuesday! xoxo! )


With super duper muchie love,
Yourself!

HANNAN IN HER DOWN WORLD

Assalamualaikum.

Dear my love blog,
I know that there's nowhere that I can write and tell all my feelings right now. Well, I know that I still have my parents to be shared with but.....

I don't think that my Ummi will listen to what I wanted to tell to very much!

Baba? Well, he's the best listener for me ever but.... I dont know why I just cant tell him what is my feeling right now. What is burden me somehow. Because...I dont want him to get upset with me anymore. He is, indeed, too much gave his all full support for me.

I felt like I already made him so upset because of me. Because of this subject!

Ya Allah.
I seriously dont know what's going on with me.
I dont have any courage to continue this battle. I dont have any spirit to face it!

I miss my friends. I need my friends. I miss all the old days we're together, fighting with all those engineering subjects and helping each other to earn the lab results.

Happy with the excellent result after 2 months of trials!

Emon and Ika while we're surviving to get the results

I was so dumb, DO I?
For being a repeat student for this subject. Alas, it is already my FINAL SEMESTER! While everyone is now happy counting days for our graduation soon with the jobs and me? Still facing that tough subject alone?

Oh My! :(

I seriously dont have courage. I seriously fed up.
For after too much effort you had put for that semester just for that subject..and...you end up fail?

And...currently right now...I have to face this one alone. without anyone knows. Without my friends.
Only my family who is far away...and him.
He might come tomorrow from Malacca just to help me. And for that, I really really hope that we can settle down my Lab 1 by tomorrow or the day after tomorrow in order to hand in the report to my lecturer before this Raya.

Ya Allah
I dont have courage for this test. I just hope that everything gonna be alright soon.
Give me strength!

TERPAKSA JUA KU UNDUR DIRI

Bismillahhirrahmanirrahim.

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

Alhamdulillah, yesterday was a great and good day for me myself with the happy and really sad moments. I thanked those people that had been sending to me from Allah.

Setiap yang datang dalam hidup kita,pasti ada sebabnya dan pengajarannya,can't say much.

Dan mungkin juga Allah hantar seseorang untuk memberitahu kita sesuatu yang kita buta untuk melihat kerana segunung kepercayaan pada orang sekeliling kita? Perhaps!

Frankly speaking,it's actually hurt me..tapi, apakan daya aku.And to think twice,I should leave from this.Tak semua orang yang kau sayang kau akan dapat jiwa,hati dan rohnya.Chill beb!Soal hati dan perasaan mana boleh paksa! Luls.

After all,I really appreciate them for coming into my life. Thanks for the very kind and warm treatment for everytime we met,Pak Cik,Mak Cik,Mummy,Daddy and Opah.Huge Appologise from me.

Well, Hannan darlings! Life must be go on and on and on...

Moganya,setelah hampir 2 tahun dalam penipuan akan mengajarkan kau lebih kuat untuk meneruskan hidup yang tersisa dengan ragam manusia yang masih banyak.

You gotta be a strong woman,Nur Hannan Che Soh!!! I love you! ;)

14 February 2016.

A day of a new life started,May Allah ease the way. In shaa Allah. :) 

I AM NOBODY

Today,
I just came out my mind to write everything in this blog. Because I tried to find a friend to lean on. But I failed!

I am so tired of crying all alone in this room. I don't know why.

Pagi tadi, I just finished with my first paper final exam which is Clinical And Industrial Environment at 10.30 a.m. I tell to myself that I have to start doing my thesis of my Final Year Project since I have to submit it by 8th February soon.

However, I failed to do so. How many times I tried. I tried to ignore my feeling. I tried to ignore what I am currently feel. End up, I failed! I failed!

It is being more than two weeks since I got myself into that  terrible accident. And when it comes to my transport to the campus or to everywhere, i feel so down. It is so sad when that accident comes into my mind as I will always ask myself,"why should the accident happen to me?"

Yes, I know that I cannot ask such that question. It gonna be myself something lack of iman. But.... I just a human. I can't be everytime high motivated person. At some point when there is nobody there that willingly to help you, you will eventually feel down.

Ya Allah,
I know that I have so much wrongs to you. I shouldn't say that kind of thing. And Baba always scolded me of having that kind of "why", "kalaulah", "sepatutnya"..... But, how can erh? nobdy will understand you. What the life put you.

I tried to tell to my Ummi and Baba. What I felt and what I am currently face. I did tell to Ummi in "kiasan". And none of the texts got relied. So sad me!

Tonight, I called him. I just want him to comfort me. I just want him to listen to me. To my cries. But, I kow that I am not that so important. Super sad me! ha!ha!

I MISS MY MYVI A LOT! AND I DO NEED IT NOW!

The only one picture of my Myvi

I need you, my dear DBB 6616! <3

(p/s : So glad that I survived from the accident. Alhamdulillah. )

VOLUNTEERISM : PLAY & PRAY

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

Alhamdulillah, I am really honor to share my activities on PLAY & PRAY event for this post.

Get to know this event from a junior of mine, Najihah Ishak. At first, I am a little bit lazy to go actually because...well, yeah...rasa mahu bermalas-malasan di rumah dengan weekend yang panjang dari Jumaat hingga Isnin. hiks!

But, to think twice, I think that it is better for me to spend my weekend time for something that would benefit me..for at least, I won't be alone and lonely..and for sure, it can help me to forget that kind of crazy stuff bla bla bla.

So, I was given a task in Explorace Preparation. At first, I was thinking that it gonna be easy..ye lah, setakat nak kena create few of the games for the six checkpoints and prepare the goods for explorace kan? Senang je tu. kiki
Tapi biasalah, it won't be as that easy when it comes to a kind of handling the games with the very smart and hyperactive kids whom basically using English as their first languange in home. Siap ada yang dengar pelat masa they are all speaking Malay..huhu

I was thinking that this explorace session would be great if I have the suitable time session like two hours or maybe at least 1 hour..The rainy evening is actually killed the kids time to finish this explorace...huhu...

Not to forget to share,in this PLAY & PRAY, I also got a chance to try the archery as well..tapi, right after all the kids play lah kan...? coz we volunteers do not pay the camp fee like the kids..hehe..It was a really really best experience in my life to play/do one of our Prophet Muhammad S.A.W sunnah.

After all, it was a very great experience to get invloved in this programme as I can be able to learn many things from the rest of the volunteers and the very fluently English Malay kids too.

Till we meet again, everyone! Sorry for cannot join the next Play & Pray on this upcoming 31 October!

with Love,
NHCS.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, 18 September!

Hey, YOU!

I won't text you just to wish a "Happy Birthday" just like what you did to me few days ago. 

*eyes moving down and crying*

Well, seriously, Selamat Hari Lahir, Happy Bornday, semoga panjang umur,  dimurahkan rezeki, dipermudahkan segala urusan, moga menjadi anak sulung yang soleh dan semoga diberikan kesihatan yang baik.

I believe that you will always be in Allah's care. Take care!

Not to forget,

Semoga bahagia.

(p/s:  today, what i can just do is....cry.. if you know that how i miss you so badly! but,you didn't)

CRYING OFF MY FACE,AGAIN!

blalalallala

Microcontroller's Mini Project In The Making

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

Well, yesterday was a 'Junior Engineer' Day for me as I've to go to Jalan Pasar for my components and other stuff for my mini project of Micro Controller & Interfacing.
(Ceyh...Junior Engineer lah sangat kaaaannnn....????? Degree pun merangkak lagi ni nak habis..haish!)

I went there with the two of my friends; whom I just met them both since my last of third semester.
Knowing them, is a great thing in my life. They are not just for me when in my happiness but yet, also in my difficulties.
Thanks kawan!

So, basically, Jalan Pasar won't be too weird with all those Electronics components and I LOVE it!!

I still remember when the first time I went here last semester for my Traffic Light Mini Project Microprocessor with a senior of mine. All those shops are too weird for me with all those variety of components themselves! Ya Allah! I am SERIOUSLY in this ENGINEERING FIELD,indeed! (feel blessed, Alhamdulillah.)

And what I like most of coming here is THIS!!!

(I can't imagine if all the LEDs is displayed here at night..Subhanallah! Mesti cantik macam Japan waktu malam..Pssttt, because I love night view and the lights here and there..haha!)


So, my "shopping" came out with these stuff :

My dear Mini Project, be nice to Mama PLEAASSSEEEE!!!! Next week dah kena pampang kat lecturer oh kayy?! :p
Coding aku entah hape hape lagi ni haaa...adoii..tak sabar rasanya nak masuk sem depan..dah tak payah susah-susah nak menhgadap programming, coding bagai dah..huwaaaa  :(


CHAIIYYOOKK HANNAN!


With Love,
NHCS

I AM COMING BACK!!

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

Hi ollss!
I am coming back to this blog-ing life after a long time been away..herh! Look likes I am becoming a new me! (Chooyy)  :p

Well, nowadays life are so hectic of being a senior student in my 4 years course..and well, it is only just 3 weeks before I'm gonna face my final for my Semester 5 degree.. (phew!)

So, life become more and more stressful and of course joyful too,actually..(kihkihkih) (^_*)

After all, have fun in life people! May Allah blessed you in whatever life put you! Insya-Allah!
Stay tune soon.

With love,
NHCS.

he~ he~ he~

I was thinking to remove this blog account.

The better life is waiting.
Chill yo!

AKU YANG TERSEPIT!

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.
Selawat dan salam ke atas Nabi Junjungan S.A.W.
Salam pagi Jumaat!

My dear blog,
If you know I'm super duper sad today! OR....lately,maybe! (^_^)
I don't know where to start but it is seriously burden to me. Ya Allah... :(

ANTARA HARAPAN MANUSIA & MASA.

AKU TERSEPIT!

KUAT AKU BERNAFAS.

KUAT AKU MENGAYUH.

AKHIRNYA,LELAH JADI TEMANKU.

Next week gonna be a really really hectic week for me myself. Week 12 out of 15 weeks in semester 3.
Petang nie terpaksa masuk kem kat Hulu Langat. Mulanya dah bajet tak nak join sebab fikir pasal next week tapi...bila bergurau dengan someone,kalau nak suruh kiter pergi,dia kena bayarkan,terus dia bayar! so,that's it lah! hurm... (=_=")

Week 12:

Monday

* Submit Lab Report Digital Electronics.

* Submit coursework Mandarin 2.

* Submit assignment Quran Sains Moden.

Tuesday

* Viva Lab Network Analysis.
* Presentation Human Physiology.

Wednesday

* Mandarin 2 Oral Test.

Thursday

* Quiz Digital Electronics.

* Quiz Electronics 2.

* Presentation Professional English 2 (Technical Report).

Friday

* Quiz Engineering Math 3.

* Quiz Network Analysis.

* Submit FULL Lab Report Network Analysis.

  ####### END OF WEEK 12 ########

Week 13 & 14 gonna be hectic too. Week 15 gonna be a crazy-giler-nak-pecah-otak's week as it is STUDY WEEK's duration!

AND....
FINAL Semester 3 for 2 weeks onwards!

(p/s : I miss them & him,big times! 29 November,If you know what I mean.)

KAU SEMPURNAKANKU.

Ya Allah!
Malam nie seriously aku stress.
I called my dad.
But,he's in the meeting...

I asked him that I will call him later on.
And,he said that the meeting is until 12 a.m!

Called my mom,but then it doesn't worth enough.
I wanna SHOUT OUT to her,"UMI.........STRESSS SANGAT  SANGATTTTT!!!"
but,it seemed not to happen!
I just say to her, "Umi....Takut sem nie..."
but then,she replied to me,"sokmo takut!"

*sobbing*

Huuuuaaaaaa~

Huuuaaaaaaa~

Huuuuaaaaaa~

Ohio,Hannan!

Serve you right then!

Kau dah tahu jawapan Umi macam tue,kau pergi luahkan jugak tue dah kenapa?

Potassium Manganate betul laaa..  :p

TAPI....

SUNGGUH!
I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO.
I NEED SOMEONE TO BE THERE FOR ME,when I'm in trouble,sad atau rasa nak nanges senanges-nangesnya kut!

I miss the old days.
I miss the old memories.
I miss of being child!
I miss everything.

Sejenak,
Di armada bilik yang jauh dari kampung.
Aku teresak juga.
Ops,bukan setakat teresak!
Menangis macam sungai ada laaa..har,har!

*Gotcha you,Hannan!*
:p

Ya Allah...kenapa sem nie rasa berat sangat subjects?
Takut pada bayangan Network Analysis yang dah well-known as a tough subject, instead of Digital Electronics.
Human Physiology pun, banyak bahasa terbelit nak menghafal!
Sekarang hanya bergantung pada Engineering Math 3,the only one!

Alunan qasidah kembali menenangkanku.
Dengan bait-bait memuji Baginda Rasulullah.
Subhanallah,betapa kuatnya Baginda S.A.W.
tapi aku?!

Ya,KAU SEMPURNAKANKU.
DAN KAU BEGITU SEMPURNA.

iamNEETA ft. Najwa Latif - Kau Pergi Jua (Official Music Video)

Membawa Pergi Diri

Assalamualaikum w.b.t...  :-)

Pejam celik,pejam celik,rupanya dah lama meninggalkan blog-ing life!

Well,Alhamdulillah,I'm just done with my Final Sem 2 for my degree.
And yes,for my FIRST YEAR ENGINEERING DEGREE too!  :-D

Maaf,blog...
Lama meninggalkan anda keseorangan.
Hanya bercanda dengan twitter je memanjang!
hehe!
Tapi...
serasakan,I need to move on!
Cukuplah bersembang lebih di Twitter tue haa..
jemu pulak rasanya!  *dush*
So,beralih kembali pada blogkah?
Insya-Allah...but not this only blog..
I need to have a privacy one!
for my own PRIVACY!

Pape pun,seminggu nie,banyak sangat yg berlaku..
mungkin kafarah dosa,agaknya!
Redha,dan ikhlas menerima. Insya-Allah..
(Harapnya aku kuat)

Tentang 'dia'...
Entah laaa...
Sejujurnya,kesilapanku...
Biasalah,bila sama-sama dah dalam mood final exam nie,
masing-masing stress kan?
maaf.

Apa pun,
frankly speaking,aku seorang yang lemah.
Tak kuat pada rasa kesabaran.
Penat pada rasa kemaafan.
And when I'm done,then I'm done..
The rest,I just leave it to Him.
Membiarkan perancangan Dia yangMaha Mengetahui.

Sejujurnya,
Diri ini ingin rasanya membawa jauh jiwa.
Agar dapat memburu kembali apa yang tercicir sepanjang minggu ini.
Kewarasan akal.
Kematangan fikiran.
Keteguhan hati.
Kesabaran emosi.
Kemaafan kata.
Kebenaran realiti.
Kesempurnaan diri.
Kesyukuran nikmat.
Itu antara yang telah aku cicirkan.
Dan itu jugalah yang perlu aku kutip kembali.
Maaf sekali lagi.
Andai ada hati yang terluka sepanjang minggu ini.
Dan juga sepanjang perkenalan.
Sungguh,aku bukan wali.

Kepada insan yang berjaya mencuri balik hati ini,

I just want to see your 'dinousor' smile when you know
your upcoming result! Sorry for all wrong doings.

Thanks for
being honest.
And..thanks too, for being the wonderful you!
May Allah keep His strength along your days.
Seandainya perasaan itu masih wujud,semoga ia terus
mekar.Insya-Allah.

Lastly,note to myself:

Diari terakhir seorang Nur Hannan Binti Che Soh.
May Allah ease your ways.And mine too.

Bismillah.
(^_^)

My Currently Life

Assalamualaikum w.b.t...  :)

Actually,aku tak tau nak tulis apa...tapi,aku nak jugak merapu kat sini....!!
hew,hew!
(^_*)


So,apa yang kau nak sangat merapu,hannan oit???
*blurr*
huk,huk,huk!


Apapun,life aku sekarang macam ape entah!
semakin nak dekat dengan final nie,perasaan malas nak meng'digest'kan segala jenis theory engineering tue macam hampeh je!! tapi,I HAVE TO FACE THEM laaa kan??
Bangun awal pagi...
Weekdays,mengawal diri dari online!(except blog-ing)
hehe!


Life dengan family??
Ohio!! (tetibe rasa sebak pulak...!!)  :(
Hmmm.....memang,boleh dikatakan every weekend I'll go back to my Abang Haqqim's home kat Bandar Kajang tu haaa....
but,it can't compare to my lovely home kat Jerteh tue haaa...
kat sana,ada baba... ada umi.... ada ayam serama...(but,not that LARGE ayam kampung yang baba and kak fatin suka sangat usik aku!!!)
sekadar balik rumah Abang Haqqim untuk meronggeng time weekend tu,ok laaa...  :)


Life dengan kawan-kawan??
Well,kami semua sekarang tak de laaa sampai fokuskan study untuk final sebenarnya..
sebab,assignments carry marks masih lagi bertimbun untuk dilihat...!!
Biasalah kan... bila nak dekat final nie laaa semua assesment tue,assesment  nie yang nak kena buat!
That is what we call university's life!
Tapi,terkadang tue,kami ada jugak melepakkan diri di kafe atau di bilik...
merapu entah pape!
hehe..  (^_^)



Life dengan si dia??
Well,Alhamdulillah, everything's going smoothly between both of us...
Cuma,sekarang nie kami jarang keep in touch...
Mungkin 2 hari sekali...average laa kan??
Tak macam dulu...
Sebab, both of us have our own responsiblelity to be take as a priority first..
Dia pun,esok dah start trial exam...(aku tak tahu habis bila... tak sempat nak bertanya.. haha)
Then,followed by his final yang akan habis bulan 6...
Aku pulak, another 3 weeks gonna have my sem 2 final...
Minggu nie dah start week 13 of academic schedule,next week will be week 14 which is the last week to go to the classes and then,week 15 which is my study week!
Then,it will be FINAL!!!
So,that's why, both of us jarang contact....
Tapi,si dia masih lagi caring terhadap diriku..
Tersangat!!
haha...  (^_^)


So,itu over all hidup aku menjelang saat-saat terakhir final nie...
Nak kata busy,terkadang tue ada laaa jugak masa nak melepak dengan kawan-kawan....
Nak kata tak busy tue,hah,yang tue tipu laaaa!!!
hahahahhaha!

ok,got to go first!
Esok dah Isnin...
kelas dah nak start nie laaa kiter baru pulun nak siapkan assignments ye???
hik3

See you!
bubbye!

NAK BALIK RUMAH!!! :'(

Ok,FINE!!!!

my lovely dovely roomate balik perlis dah!!!!

ARGHHHHH!!!!

nak balik rumah jugak!!!
nak balik terengganu!

tak pasal-pasal aku bermimpi aku dah sampai rumah time tdo tadi..
hmmmmmm.....
sobs!!!  :'(

umi....
baba....
adik nak balik.....!!!!

:'(    :'(   :'(   :'(

Hectic,Again!!

Assalamualaikum w.b.t....  (^_^)


Errr???
What should I say,hurh???
sebab....sekarang nie memang tengah stress tahap gaban pun!!
yang tahu,rasa macam nak baling semua benda....
nak masuk hutan sorang-sorang...
biar jadi tarzan!!
hahahahaha.................

Entahlaaa....!
Bila nak dekat dengan final nie,banyak nak kena fikir...
Assignments.
Lab reports.
Quizes.
and,of course, attendence for classes!

Ya Allah..............!!!!
Semua benda bertubi-tubi datang tue!!
ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tension nyer!

you know what??
This week saja,aku ada 3 quiz!
Pagi tadi baru je lepas quiz 3 untuk Engineering Mathematics.
Then,esok pagi Quiz 2 Circuit Theory 2, followed by Quiz 2 Electronics 1 at noon!
Lab pun,sama jugak laaa.....
Lab report Circuit Theory 2 nak kena submit this Thursday.
lepas tue,tadi ada lab last utk Introduction Digital Electronics.pun,lab report yang leceh menunggu!
apa lagi erk???
hah,lab Engineering Mechanics dengan last lab untuk Electonics 1!!


so,total up,I will have 3 quizes and 3 lab  for this week!! and,1 lab report to be submitted!!
okayy!!
nice,nice!!

Have nothing to say anymore.
Speechless??
Yeah,I am!!
Tension??
SURE,I AM!!! triple punyer stress kut!! stress,strain,pressure,semua ada!! (hampeh..!!boleh lagi keluarkan istilah Engineering Mechanics tue!! haha)

so,for this time being,Twitter and Facebook akan dibekukan untuk weekdays,starting today...and,same goes to Whatssapp!
And,the important thing is....
I NEED TO GAIN MY STRENGTH TO WAKE UP EARLIER IN THE 'DINIHARI' AS I DID BEFORE....
dah tak boleh bermalas-malasan dah!!
so,hannan..
make sure tidur pukul 12 MALAM!!!!
BANGUN pukul 3.30 PAGI...!!!
for solat sunat dulu kejap...then,baru start study!!


Ya,Allah..
Semoga Engkau menguatkan anggotaku.
Semoga Engkau terus bersamaku.
Di saat jatuh bangunku.

To everyone (who knows me) :
I'm trying to be a good daughter,sister,student,friend,and an understanding & loyal lover to a loved one.
So,please...pray for me.


Okayy,got to go!!
Lecture Engineering Mechanics is waiting!!

Waiting For Mr.Cruise ♥

Assalamualaikum w.b.t....  :-D

hmmm....
waiting for Mr.Cruise???
oh,bukan Tom Cruise laaa kan??? hehe...

well,Jumaat lepas aku turun Seremban...ingat nak buat plan giler aku
nak memujuk NH...haish! haha...
tapi,something better happened laaa kan???   (^_*)

And semalam,NH and famili naik Cruise...insya-Allah,akan turun petang nie..
sedih kan???

I can't contact him for one day!
ohio...hati,sabar je laaa....  :'(

Wish him will have fun with his loving family...
and the most important is..wish him will be back safely...
insya-Allah,amin... :-D

Selamat Hari Wujud,NH! ♣

Assalamualaikum w.b.t... :-D

nothing much to say..

To: NH,a former close and understanding friend, Happy Birthday!
       Semoga diberkati hidup,dunia dan akhirat.
       May Allah blessed!