INI :KiSaH hATiKu

Assalamualaikum w.b.t...

First of all, I would like to emphasized here that this entry is about my own feeling and myself.
so,if it is going to related to someone else, I'm so sorry.
Because I don't have any books of diary since I was staying in hostel... so, this is my alternative diary of mine..

Last night.
will be in my memory.


Memang.
semalam, I felt so sleepy tahap gaban kut!!
padahal baru pukul 10.30 malam...
tapi...
disebabkan something happened last night,
aku seriously tak dapat tidur...
I tweeted all my feelings in my tweeter accounts...
time tue, roomate dah switch off lampu..
and she asked me about my tweets..
"hannan,kenapa  dengan tweet you nie???",she asked.

my reaction???
well,I didn't replied her.
because at that time, air itu laju mengalir...
oh,basah bantal ku!!!
hoho~

last last,my roomate dah tidur.... and I cried sepuas hati..!
at 1.58 a.m, I went to the toilet...ambik wudhuk...
tapi sayang...still tak dapat tidur...
pukul 3 pagi baru aku terlelap...


so,after all, what I wanna to share here is......

FULLSTOP !!

THE  END !!

ENOUGH !!

GET OUT OF MY LIFE !!

Reasons:

* I don't want to get hurt again.

* I'm so tired of that feeling.

*I just want to have fun in my life,not sad.

For the very last thing that I want to say is, thanks to you... for had been there in my life.

and sorry too... for my upcoming actions.

because I'm feeling tired to get hurt again.

Yasmin Mogahed

Sometimes you search so hard for words. You look for a way to interpret the language of this heart and the unspoken bond you feel. But in the end you are left with nothing but silence. And deep down you hope it’s understood.

#may Allah blessed#

~tHE tOUCHING mOMENT~

Assalamualaikum w.b.t......  :D

Ok,frankly speaking, aku memang seorang yang mudah tersentuh...

tak kisah laa,pasal haiwan ke, manusia ke... 

sebab aku memang begitu...

Namaku, Nur Hannan..

Means, Nur=Cahaya & Hannan=Penyayang/Lembut hati.

So, Cahaya Penyayang/Lembut hati... :)


Alkesahnye begini...
Weekend lepas, all my family members stayed at my brother's apartment
which is Apartment Bukit Mutiara,Kajang Perdana.
We alls stay kat sana pun,
sebab my parents want to discuss about my brother's wedding
with the Port Klang's girl...
Tambah pulak,I x start lagi kelas untuk sem 2 time tue kan..???
so,why not I joined them too???

Nak di jadikan cerita,
before kitorang pergi rumah my brother's future wife,
umi nak singgah kat GM Klang...
barang kat sana murah katanya... ;)
(oh,I said that too... hehe)

Time duk pusing-pusing kat sana,
aku start sakit belakang.
Tersangat!!
(even jalan kejap laaa jugak... well,shopping,right??)
tapi,before this,kalau pi shopping mana-mana pun, tak de laa seteruk macam nie... :(
At that time, serius tak tahan tapi,
I didn't show it....
sampai laaa,time I with my dad,and not forgetting my brother too,
went to the ChiChat cafe before we went to the basement parking...
at the same time,
my umi,kak fatin & kakak berborong lagi...
aku x larat nak ikut dorang sebab dah sakit sangat belakang nie haa....


Time duk ngan baba & Abang Haqqim,
I touch my back...I meant,my pinggang and tulang belakang...
Baba did realised it and asking me.
then,I told him that I've back pain for a long time ago,
since I've had the shoulder injury at the Kem Kepimpinan Kolej2 MARA & Kolej Profesional MARA
kat  Belum Rainforest on the earlier of December 2011.

Actually,time nak jawab soalan baba tue,
dah start sebak dah...
bila baba bukak mulut pasal kecederaan bersukan,
naaa......
terus aku menangis!
(adoi,pokai betul malu) haha
tapi,seriously,I'm touched!
sedih pun ada jugak bila terkenang diri nanti di hari esok..
Tengok saja apa yang berlaku kat baba sekarang...
tangan sakit..
His shoulder pun,just like mine.
And,
pergelangan baba injured ape entah.
semuanya sebab dulu baba active badminton...
And because of that,
baba dah tak dapat angkat barang even 2 kg load!!
(sekarang nie pun,aku dah tak boleh sangat laaa nak angkat barang berat sangat mcm dulu...
tapi,masih boleh lagi jika nak dibandingkan dengan
situation baba sekarang kan??)
and, another injury that my baba had is,
lutut dia...
kepala lutut baba injured time main sepak takraw dulu-dulu..
well,
dulu baba memang active sepak takraw..
aku masih ingat lagi time aku kecik dulu(x ingat umur berapa...
tak masuk tadika lagi pun rasanya...)
aku selalu ikut baba training sepak takraw
with his team...


owh,back to our conversation at
the ChiChat GM Klang,
Baba cakap kat aku..
kecederaan adik(nick name of mine in family)
tue,berat tau tak???
cedera parah disebabkan sukan....
biasalah kalau orang yang active & lasak...
itulah risiko yang kena tanggung...
adik sepatutnya time injured dulu,
terus balik..
berubat secara tradisional....
tak boleh nak harapkan doktor kat hospital tue je..
tengok aba (baba) sekarang nie.
sebab duk lasak sangat laa masa muda-muda dulu..
tue yang jadi macam nie sekarang...
bukannye tak nak tolong umi angkat benda berat...
tapi,tak leh..
sakit..


At the same time,
mataku bergenang...
sumpah tak tahan!
and,
finally,
I cried!
at the ChiChat cafe..
in front of the people who were walking around the GM Klang...
sampai pelayan yang nak ambik order pun,
perasan...
sebab ada bekas air kat booklet menu dia..
abang aku pun,satu hal jugak!
hisy!

and
to cool down me,
baba asked me whatever menu that I want.
and,
I choose this one!!!

Chocolate Ice Snow with jelly. Cost RM 5.50. :D

I know that baba sengaja buat macam tue...
semata-mata nak pujuk aku...
(owh,tetibe tulis sampai part nie,terasa sebak pulak!
tak pasal-pasal bergenang balik mataku..hailoh!)

whatever it is,
itulah kasih seorang ayah.
kan?


ups & downs..
he will always be there...
and umi too....
(so greatful of having such a great,loving & supportive parents like them..)
and also my brother & sisters too....
or,
my sister in-law to be???
hehe  (^_*)

#that's me...my life...my own feeling...my caring & loving baba...the understanding one! that will always give us(my siblings) motivation when needed.. the one that always give us the spirit of life....tak kisah dalam apa jua masalah sekalipun....mungkin,baba sebegitu sebab baba seorang guru?yang selalu berdepan dengan anak-anak murid yang pelbagai background di sekolah.... dan,honestly speaking, I'm glad to have him as my dad...and I'm glad too to have umi as my mom..thanks for everything...#

If a country is to be corruption free and become a nation of beautiful minds, I strongly feel there are three key societal members who can make a difference. They are the father, the mother and the teacher. 
Abdul Kalam 

*Alhamdulillah,Ya Allah...*
>tak sabar nak pulun decorate hantaran kahwin my brother nanti...wish everything's going smoothly.<

IkUt HaTi = MaT!

Assalamualaikum w.b.t....

Taken from Mohd Aqifly Zamri's Facebook status :

“Never leave a friend behind. Friends are all we have to get us through this life--and they are the only things from this world that we could hope to see in the next.”
― Dean Koontz, Fear Nothing

First of all,I would like to say sorry if this entry might be too personal and hurt anyone... But, frankly speaking,it’s all about me, my life....and my ego,perhaps! (^_^)  -oh,jujurnya aku!-

I’m not good at all times.

Nor that so cruel as well,okay?? (^_*)

But, as others,a few of my friends and I also have our own feelings.. 

(owh,at this time, my real player lappy just sing the Grenade by Bruno Mars....

the song that A****  A****  like... but it’s lyrics is so touched,actually..)

Ok,back to my point, terkadang tue, kalau kita nak ikut hati sangat pun, tak de guna...

Sebab,ikut hati tue kan, mati.... (oh,that’s what older Malays said before...)  tapi,betul tau...

Ikut hati memang giler!

Ok,just like me. The time that I’m writing this entry in my blog,or maybe I’ll not publish it straight forward, I just settle my problems with my friends who is Jiha, Sally & Saidah... not that kind of having discussing face to face among us but I step forward to message them... Ask for forgiveness...

This was what I messaged them :

After having a little bit discussion with 2 of them via message (because Jiha’s having her Mandarin 1 lecture), then we are okay with each other,again... :D (we’re supposed to have this discussion earlier,actually...right?) -yes,absoulately!for at least,we're not having "masam2 muka ke apa just like before...-

And one of my message that I replied to them is:

“Hmm...tak sape nak kite renggang...tapi,terkadang tue,diri kita yang buat mcm tue tanpa sedar..so do I..kalau nak cakap,ika terasa..saya pun turut terasa tapi,nak buat macam mana.. Takdir,perhaps!Cuma,I just trying to put aside my ego,my feelings to you all..same goes to Ika..Tapi tue la,kite biasanya tak sedar apa yang kiter da buat kan?Just like me too..After all, kalau nak ikut ego,memang tak sudah..kalau nak layan perasaan,memang tak terlayan..kalau nak ikut syaitan,memang tambah bala..seringkali,pengalamanlah yang mengajar kita erti hidup..that’s all..”

#maaf,mesej-mesej yang aku hantar kepada mereka di atas hanya untuk berkongsi pengalaman hidup... tak lebih dari itu.. mungkin di sebaliknya terdapat sedikit mesej kalau tak banyak pun... agar kita merendahkan ego kita... put aside our feeling... sebab, kita hidup kat dunia nie, bermasyarakat... bukan sorang-sorang... so,we need to be tolerate with people..thanks to Ika & Wani yang menasihati & meredakan diri ini daripada hasutan syaitan.#

*buat rakan-rakan seperjuangan yang terbaca entry ini, maaf dipinta andai ada yang terkesan di hati.... seriously,hanya berkongsi teladan di sini... agar di ambil iktibar oleh rakan-rakan yang lain... whatever it is, I just wanna to say that I’m comfortable to be friend with you guys...thanks sebab sanggup bersama di saat jatuh bangun..(oh,credit to Anis Hasri,Fatin Filzah Adeni,Nazatul Husna Hamidon, Dieana Mazli,Syafikah Mior,Jalilah Jumahat, and not forgetting,NH too...for being there;ups & downs.*



every single thing in life 
needs effort and patience
if you want the results doubly quick
then double the variables and equations
@[Hlovatesays]

140113 : 1055 p.m

Kamsis Fathmiayah

Nur Hannan Binti Che Soh.

(Cahaya Penyayang/Lembut Hati)

~ Space & Time ~

Assalamualaikum w.b.t......

The moment when I’m writing this entry will be absolutely one month I do not keep in touch with him.

Reason?

Or

Reasons?

I don’t know why.....

What I know is, he’s still alive..... (-_-)

Because....he always upadates his status in facebook and tweets in twitter. (I’m not that knid of stalk him... but his upadates are always appears in mine...but, sometimes, in twitter, I stalk him,too... hehe)

One month.

Enough to make me feels the absence of him in my life....

And GREAT enough to make me feels empty of the days... plus,I’m having my sem break, same goes to him...

Sem break..more than one month sem break...busy studying?? har,har! It’s not the best answer, anyway!

Living in this situation, well, it’s remind me something...his word to me.

                                  “sorry...after this,I’ll contact you first.”                                                                         (owh,every single of thing has it’s own backside story right?? The no-need-to-tell story)

And now,it’s happened again...but, AFTER we both done with our final...

However....

Okay,fine!

Let say this easy...after both of us done with our final, I directly went back to Terengganu...

Frankly speaking,we still keep in touch at that time even it was like “jarang-jarang” or sometimes.

After days,we didn’t...

Maybe my fault..I didn’t reply him at that night once he like my status in facebook. But then, I replied him 2 days after.

Starting from that,he quite.

Oh,yeah! I’m remembering something! He said to me something...

he had problem, actually..

 (I know what kind of his problem but to respect him,I won’t mention that..) 

and when I asked him to tell me the full version of his problems,he rejected me...

and I said,sokay...take your time..

untill one day,about last 3 weeks,I messaged him,again...

giving the spiritual message but again, I didn’t have any answer...up to this moment.)

-so,should I call it as “pasrah dalam keredhaan”, hurh?-

What the funny thing happened to me is.....

last 2 days, I dreamt he just send me a message! 

It just real,you know???

with my Nokia X3 blue design and with his saving name appeared in the screen!wow!

 but,when I woke up for subuh...

what should I say is...IT WAS JUST A DREAM, Hannan...

 (owh, so annoying ain’t it??)  

Funny doesn’t mean meaningless then.

After all, ruang dan waktu. Space and time.

Dengan masa,apa sahaja mampu terjadi dengan izin-Nya. (Time.Everything could happened with God’s willing). Taken by 5 Tahun 5 Bulan, a birthday gift Hlovate’s novel from him before our final start..(naaaa....what I really like about this novel is, the heroin in this novel named Johanna a.k.a Ana.. *blushing, hehe* she’s a MARA Scholar student in medic,University of Aberdeen,UK..haaa,just telling you about that ANA name okay?? Hehe)

1955 : 26122012

NH

A birthday gift by NH.

To NH

From KMS.

Breakfast + Lunch = BRUNCH

KMS

MRSM TAIPING

PERAK

SEREMBAN

*5 Tahun 5 Bulan,Hlovate*

Enough said!

2052 : 26122012

NH.

# the third person treated me in this way. Keep waiting. Tired. Result:Let them go. Look forward. Walk confidently. Treat others nicely. Live happily. #

Enough said!

>the day that I publish this entry is after he contacts me again after a long time.....after all,nothing that I can say... NICE ONE yeah???<

+sorry for everything+

Register Sem 2 -Done Already-

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.....

Today is my first day in BMI after almost 2 month having sem break.....
Semalam, dalam pukul 11 malam, bertolak ke Hentian Putra,Kuala Lumpur.... sampai dalam pukul 6 pagi tadi, I straightly took LRT Ampang Line to Pandan Jaya.
After a few hours rest at my sis's home, I went to Chempaka LRT Station to LRT Gombak.... dalam LRT tadi,memang penuh dengan manusia pun!

lepas sampai, terus ambik bas ke UIA Gombak...jalan kaki masuk BMI... (sangat malu!)

then,daftar..... hmm.... bukannye daftar mana pun.... daftar biasa-biasa je pun.....

masuk bilik, roomate aku, wani duk sapu lantai.... and, I joined her too.... kitorang mop terus lantai... baru aman nak stay dalam bilik nie kan.. huhu

tapi...... ada satu yang aku terkilan hari nie.... hmmm....

x pe laaa,hannan..... nak buat macam mana..... kan,kan????

pape pun, aku harapkan sem nie dapat dean list.... I REALLY HOPE SO....  (^_^)


ok,tetibe bilik bising.... adik2 diploma (ex-roomate roomate aku sekarang mai bilik... dorang nak keluar pi Giant.... tinggal aku sorang....)

bila laaa, si Ika nie nak mai????

Last Day With AR Square

Assalamualaikum w.b.t....
Good morning, guys!

okay... today is the last day I'll be in my home... well, sem break dah sampai ke penghujungnya!

untuk hari yang terakhir ini, tak banyak yang aku buat.... pagi semalam, kemas bilik... biasalah kan, sebelum nak tinggal bilik lama nie... (entah bila pulak balik...) umi said, "you've to tidy up your room... kalau tak, ada yang mengintai bilik kosong tue...) *gulp*
umi memang nak bagi aku takut pun.... :p

dan, hari nie???

yeah, my last day with AR Square!

you know what AR Square???  (hurh,confirm tak tau kan?? hehe)

AR Square is....si kembar Ali Riejal  &  Arief Ramadhan!  (tadddaaaa.......) haha
#nama orang rupanye#

they both are my boyfriends for this sem break... (^_*)

Naaa... nie Ali Riejal  a.k.a Riejal....

nie pulak, Arief Ramadhan...  a.k.a  Arief...

si Riejal tu susah sangat nak senyum... si Arief pulak, selalu je ketawa...pantang orang tengok dia sikit! tapi, kuat nangis pun,dialah! haha

hah,nie gambar Riejal time 4 atau 5 bulan... memang lain!

actually Ali Riejal nie, dua pupu aku.... his dad is my mom's cousin....

si Arief tue pulak, anak jiran depan rumah aku.... huhu

so, I'm still the youngest ok, in my family...! aha! biler entah boleh jadi kakak... kakak tumpang je laaa kan????


hehe...ok,that's all.... pape pun, malam nie, pukul 9.30 malam, aku dah naik bas ke hentian putra,kl.... pergi rumah kakak dulu kat Pandan Perdana before going to my campus for registration sem 2...

ok laa...bubbye!

~ THE TAKEN HOMELAND ~

THE TAKEN HOMELAND

6 Decades,

You have been living that way.

Full with tears.

Full with anguish.

6 decades,

Sketchiness. Cruelty. Ferocity.

You used to it.

It’s your home.

Your land.

Your homeland.

Your happiness place.

Your dignity.

It’s yours!

Why do they do that to what is belonged to you???!!

The 6 decades.

The land is taken.

The land is bombed.

The land is desecrated.

But,

The land is still there.

Even it’s getting smaller and smaller.

Your courage and jihad is getting bigger.

And bigger.

Others never know how your truth feeling.

Others might not know the real life you’re facing.

Others never ever know how’s the feeling of losing the loved one.

Others, too, never ever know how to comfort your broken heart as you wish.

But,

Brothers and sisters.

Others know that you’re suffering.

We’re all standing to fight for you, Palestianians.

The taken homeland.

The courageous man.

The tough women.

The warrior children.

You all will be free, Insya-Allah.

 

Nur Hannan Che Soh,

#Sunday,231212 : 0854#

>Demi Palestin, TV Al-Hijrah<

(p/s : This poem is dedicated to Palestine. Dear brothers and sisters all over the world, this is  not about racial. This is not about religious. But, it is all about humanity! There’s nothing important when our home is taken by someone else. There’s nothing important when our beloved one are passed away because of them. There’s nothing important when our country is being colonised. It’s our solidarity.)